I'm not sure where life is taking me right now.  I'm experiencing things that I never thought I would let myself slide into.  My faith in Christians is pretty much gone.  I hate Christians.  They do not live the life that God would be proud of.  The church has pretty much turned its back on me and if they knew of the stuff that I have done or am going to do in the near future...well lets just say they wouldn't let me back in.  But even so, here I am listening to worship music...I don't know why.  I watched a interview with Brian Welch today on the 700 club.   He was the guitarist for Korn but left because he found God.  Little did I know that he found God with the help of snorting speed at the same time.

I'm just so sick of where I am right now.  I want out.  I want to be in a place where I can actually fall asleep with a smile on my face and wake up well rested because I am comfortable with who I am and where I am.